For the past week or so I feel like I've been dragging. I've desperately needed to be recharged. I literally have felt like someone unplugged me & my battery life was slowly running out.
This motherhood thing is hard. It can be isolating. I've been thinking about this feeling over the past few days, about how I felt defeated before I even got out of bed, and it dawned on me. I only feel like this when I stop putting the Lord first.
The word "recharged" has been popping into my head over & over again this week. Honestly, my first thought was that maybe I needed some solo mama time one night after Ben got home. Time alone to decompress. That would do the trick, right? no. I had my solo Target trip on Tuesday and it didn't do the trick. (although it was fun to browse without a squawking 1 year old)
My priorities have been all wrong lately & I'm feeling the impact of that now. God is the one who breathes life into me & He's the only one that can truly make me feel recharged. He is first. I am second.
...and just because God is really funny about throwing things in our faces when we really need to hear it, this is what Jesus Calling said a couple days ago:
"The more you focus on My Presence with you, the more fully you can enjoy life."