the bittersweet part of the last baby

I'm so ready for the next chapter of our lives. I promise I am. This stage of life is so fleeting & sweet, but three kids who are pretty self sufficient sounds glorious.
and then I rock her. My sweet, wild, spicy, curious, always moving baby girl. It's almost like time stands still in that rocker.  It truly is the only time she lets me snuggle her & we might just be rocking her to sleep until she goes to college.  She is the sweetest little toddler baby. I say all the time that I wish I could freeze her just like this. Keep her as a 17 month old just a little while longer.
We've been in this baby stage for so long now that I sometimes forget that it won't always be like this.  I won't always have tiny little fingers clawing at me while I cook dinner. I won't always hear a sweet little voice yelling, "mama!!! mama!!!" One day I will even get to take a shower without having a child in the bathroom at the same time as me. (at least I hope that part is true)
These kids are growing up so fast & I feel like the last year literally FLEW. Our last baby won't be a baby much longer and it's a weird, happy, heartbreaking place to be.
I've got Psalm 126:3 written on our kitchen chalkboard right now & it seems to perfectly describe how I am feeling about life right now: "The Lord has done great things for us and we are filled with joy." 
So. much. joy.  There's just something about that last baby. 

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