6.17.2014

Content.

This is probably just going to be me rambling a lot. I'll apologize in advance. I'm a person that is constantly looking ahead. What's our next step in life? In recent years those thoughts have centered around babies. When we had Griffin we knew he wasn't our last. We knew that, God-willing, there would be at least 1 more baby eventually added to the May clan.  I just never thought twice about it. I was actually worried that I would never feel done. I love me some babies and I was afraid that I would always have a sadness about never having any more kids.  What if I never truly felt like our family was complete?
 
I can honestly say that my heart has changed with this pregnancy. This baby girl will be the one that completes our family & I am totally okay with that. I have such a peace about Cheney being the last baby we ever have. It's a weird feeling knowing this is my last pregnancy. The last time I will ever be huge, uncomfortable, & 8 months pregnant. I won't necessarily miss the huge & uncomfortable part, but I will miss never feeling these strong kicks again. It's all kind of bittersweet. I will say, it's been nice giving away my maternity clothes that I know I won't need anymore. Ever again:)

I'm just happy to be feeling content at this stage in life. Content with who we are as a family.
I'm trying hard to soak this pregnancy up. It's definitely been my hardest & I'm convinced that Cheney will be quite the princess with all she has already put me through. Ha! We are ready to meet this baby girl & become our official Party of Five!

4 comments:

Jenn @ Bliss to Bean said...

You look great!! I am pregnant with my second and I just don't know if this will be our last…I can't tell if we will want more?! But I am trying to enjoy every step just in case it is. Beautiful post mama!

Mateya said...

What a great feeling to know in your heart that your family is complete. I wonder about that with us. I don't know if we're done. I know I don't want to have another one for a LONG time if we do. Robbie says if we have 3 we need to have 4, so either we're done or we're having 2 more...crazy to think about!

Lizzie Simantz said...

That's awesome you know you're done! I feel the same way you use to, like what if I never feel "done"?! Maybe after #3 appears I will know, but I already catch myself thinking about #4!

Lindsey @ The Hill House said...

I feel like you are typing my thoughts!! My hubby has always said that 3 kids was it, no more than that. And I have always balked because I've never been quite ready to say I'm finished with having babies. But like you, I am pregnant with a girl (after 2 boys), and this pregnancy has been worse than either of the others. I still can't say I'm officially ready to be done having kids yet, but this pregnancy has certainly pushed me closer to that point! :)
Good luck with the rest of your pregnancy!!