9.11.2012

where I belong

I like to think I have been pretty honest since giving birth to Griffin. I hope I have been, at least. I would never want to paint a picture of my life being all rainbows & butterflies; it is far from that. Especially in this season of life.

Right now, our house is loud. Between a tantrum throwing toddler, a screaming newborn, & 3 wild dogs, our house is just loud

I lose my patience more than I care to mention & there are so many days that I am completely done by 4pm.

This season of life is so hard, so trying, and so exhausting. 

There have been moments in the past few months when I have had the thought, "this is not what I signed up for."  When I haven't been able to shower in way too long, when Grayson is trying to do flips over the couch, when Griffin projectile spits up all over me for the millionth time that day. Those are the moments that, just for a split second, I wonder if I was absolutely crazy for signing up for this gig.

But then? Grayson says something that absolutely cracks me up. Griffin opens his eyes for a little while, makes eye contact with me, and gives that heart-melting baby smile. I watch as my oldest checks on his baby brother & gives him a kiss on the head.

That's when I know. I'm right where I belong. Maybe I am in fact crazy for trading in the teacher hat for the stay at home mom hat. I'd like to think it's a good kind of crazy though. My heart is in it. This is where I belong.

15 comments:

Catie said...

Love this post! This made me smile.

Paige said...

I love this :)

Natalie said...

I feel the same way...life is so crazy right now but worth it!

Stephanie said...

What a beautiful post!

Ashley Paige said...

LOVE YOU! Love this post. I love that we live mirror lives during this season of our life! I just wish it wasn't in two different states!!

Lynsey said...

Love this post! And love your family! I feel the same way right now. So thankful to have you as we go through this stage in our lives.

The Guff said...

Such a good post! This is a hard gig! But the rewards are unmatched :) keep your head up girl!

Mateya said...

So sweet! Being a mom is the hardest job. I work part time so I can attest to the fact that staying home is MUCH harder than going to work!

elizabeth said...

Love this post! Your a great mama! Hang in there!

Jennifer said...

Great post! You'll never regret this time you have with your boys. Promise.

[dianegatorfan] said...

Love this post Laura! You are so funny and have such a sweet heart. Those boys are so lucky to have you as their mama!

Mallorie said...

Oh you are preachin' to the choir, sister! I loved this post. :-)

the workaholic momma said...

Love this...thanks for this post!!!! I can totally see how with all of that going on you would have those kinds of moments/thoughts...but keep your head up - you're doing great!!!

Ashleigh Nichole said...

So sweet! I love this post. I love both your boys like crazy & their parents too :) I am glad you love being right where you are sweet girl :)

Marci said...

Love this post! I can't wait until I can trade in my Accounting Analyst hat for the Stay at home Mom hat!
I'm not where I belong yet, but I'll get there!