4.10.2012

confessions

...because sometimes it just feels good to let it all out. 

  • I don't drink enough water. I know that I don't and I know that I need to. I especially know that with the hot weather coming quickly I need to drink water or I will puff up like blowfish. {which I don't get by the way. why does drinking water until I feel like I will float away keep me from swelling a ton? makes no sense to me.} Water shmater, I prefer a cold Diet Coke or gatorade. 
  • Right before I sat down to type this I sat on the couch and scarfed down ice cream. No bowl, just the carton. Bachelor pad style. Just keepin' it classy, folks.
  • Grayson has 4 main things he eats for lunch & dinner and that's it. FOUR things. 2 of those things are chicken nuggets & fish sticks. Mom of the Year, right here. 
  • 90% of the time I am SO flipping excited about having 2 kids. That other 10% of the time? I am nervous. The only thing that really makes me nervous (so far) is how the heck am I going to get 1 toddler & 1 small infant to bed all by myself when Ben works late? 2 baths? 2 bedtime routines? eek. makes me nervous. I know in my head that I will figure it out, just like I did with G...but for now, it makes my head hurt thinking about it.
  • I'm just gonna say it & I apologize to the 4 guys that probably read this: the girls (you get my drift) are out of control right now & make me feel SO self conscious. Basically, if I'm not wearing a t-shirt, they are out there. I can't help, I hate it, & I promise I'm not trying to show off "the goods" to the world. 
  • I don't miss teaching. I feel like I should at times, but I don't. 
  • If Ben is at work & someone rings my doorbell, I grab G and hide. Seriously. Not because I'm scared of people or anything, but because my dogs are so dang crazy that it's too big of hassle to juggle a toddler, open a door, and hold 2 big dogs back. 
  • I feel like I have failed my child already when it comes to school. I threw around the idea in my head of G going to a 2 day/week MDO program in the fall for a few hours each day. I started looking at programs 2 weeks ago and apparently everyone did registration in early February. I'm already behind and he is only 18 months! Gah, I suck.
phew. I feel better. 

6 comments:

Natalie said...

I nned to drink more water too---I used to when I was at work b/c I sat next to the water cooler LOL! Oh and I know I was just thinking about entering Nolan in a MDO but haven't even started the looking process...I think it's b/c our boys have fall birthdays--it throws us off plus we'll have a new addition soon so it's the last thing on our minds!

The Guff said...

Not a bad mom! I don't even know you IRL and I think you're a great mom! Everyone has their hitch. And it seems you have less than me!!!

The Burfitt's said...

I totally hide when people come to the door too, hahah! :) and no worries about the school thing. I didn't register jaks last year until a week before it started and there was still space! Of course we are all different but I have loved having him in school a couple days to have my alone time with Henry!!

Catie said...

I know how you feel worrying about the bedtime routine with a toddler and new baby alone! I had my son in November when my daughter was 17 months old and she is very routine oriented. But somehow it works! You will figure out what works best for you. :-)

Shelli said...

MDO registration is crazy! If G's diet classifies you as mom of the year then I should be getting my ribbon in the mail any day! Ha!

Lynsey said...

1- I prefer Gatorade too. And I'd rather have real coke than diet coke. Water is for the birds. I am so sick of drinking it.
2- I completely ate Rainbow Sherbet straight for the carton last night while B was downstairs working out. Gotta love it.
3- I am nervous about 2. Mainly that i'll go into labor when B is at work and I'm home with Mason and wont be able to get in touch with B. I'm crazy!
4- I hate answering the door too. Our 2 dogs go insane. I've often thought of disabling the door bell.
5- You haven't failed as a mom. MDO registration is insane! Who knew you had to register so early? I think it's nuts.